Last year this time I can clearly remember my sister calling my name from upstairs ‘Hey we need to make dadus bed, he wants to sleep’. I make my way up the stairs and see my little sister making the bed. My grandfather enters the room – ‘How do I look?’ He had bought a new shirt for Diwali and was fishing around for compliments the little attention seeker (Yes that could be where I got it from). I think I had heard him ask that question almost 6 times that night. Immediately both my sister and I started saying ‘ Bhow fine.. wow!! You look so handsome’ – Handsome he was!! My younger sister had been documenting his fashion change throughout his visit in London. Standing next to him he asked my sister to take a photo and little did I know that, that would be the last new year.. the last photo I would have taken with him,

Life is so unpredictable, I look a little walk today to get some fresh air and take it all in. Its new years tomorrow and a tear trickles down my face. I start getting fast flashbacks of what I have achieved, what I have been doing and what I have seen in this past year – All was nothing of what I expected to be, Not even the closest!! I need it to stop! I need time to freeze so I can take it all in. Its so over whelming to be in a familiar place that doesn’t feel familiar.

Its a bitter sweet feeling.

The walk home worked well for me. My thought process became organised and I started feeling happy, I must have done something right in my past life to have been born into my family. I started thinking about Kenya.. I started smiling… I thought about all the times I had caused my family some sort of stress and how they all reacted with the similar..’What the… Its okay were in it together’ That is when you know they have your back.. No matter what the situation is, they make the biggest trouble in your life feel like it can be dusted over your shoulder and that the heavy draining burden disturbing you is distributed between you, Were in this together.

I cant emphasize this enough, Its all about the family. Its all about eating on the same dinner table, teasing each other, sharing tears, laughter and chocolate.

Today is Diwali, today is when we light a candle, today is when we celebrate, today is about us, whatever makes us happy and today we look forward, we look forward to another year that will makes us grow, experience, love, live, and appreciate.